Wednesday, March 18, 2015
On Love And Panic Attacks
Today is day three of the Deepak Chopra and Oprah Winfrey 21 Day meditation experience. But since I didn't open the laptop yesterday I did the day two meditation first.
It is "Success Increases Love". The centering thought is "I am here to bring more love into the world."
It really was a lovely guided meditation but, and it's a big but, it was hard to do while on the verge of a panic attack.
For the last two nights I have not been able to sleep very well at all. I am waking up every hour or so and then my cat has taken to waking me around five A.M. to get me to give her some canned food.
This morning I thought that I would just fix me some coffee and stay awake like I did two days ago. Monday was a good day.
Nope. No such luck. As I drank my second cup of coffee I felt the anxious beginnings of a panic attack. So I stopped the coffee and thought that doing the meditation would help. It ended up being too distracting to fight.
I really do like the idea, though, that I am here to bring more love into the world. I love people and creatures and places and things. And I try to share that love in my writing and in my actions every day.
Then, on Facebook, I saw a nice article in Psychology Today about what love is. It discusses whether love is an emotion or an feeling or a drive.
My belief is that love can be all three of those things.
While writing this my dear friend Mark, whom I love, called to chat. Talking to him really helped disperse the panicky feelings.
So perhaps the meditation did work in a way. While concentrating on me bringing more love into the world, I received a bit and it helped me.
Has this happened to you? When you are having a panic attack have you received help in a serendipitous way?